I Hit A Wall...I Know it....and I have to climb over it today!!!!!!

I hit a wall…I know it…and I have to climb over, go around or blast through it!!!!

Today is Wednesday, and if I get to the end of my day without making the calls necessary to complete my required calls promised to my boss on Monday I am just fucking myself and our financial security.

It is just a matter of time before my lack of calls will directly reflect in my sales and I will lose my job.

My wife was home yesterday and I know that had some impact but I told my wife of how much I hate cold calling and she understands and had some good suggestions….but she also called it right when she said that because she is off Monday & Tuesday one week and working 3-11 Wednesday through Friday the other that I will have a tendency to want to be with her rather than work…so she sees right through me. Yesterday after telling her of my distain for cold calling she let me take some time off but then suggested that I go to my home office to make calls from 3 – 5, so in I went and ended up procrastinating and writing a letter instead which could have waited until after 5 for sure.

So if after today, I have not made all the calls I need to I might as well admit to myself that I am not capable at this time in my life of taking the responsibility seriously since I can see the future potential for career/financial disaster and also for the financial upside.

The boss is out of the office all day so I can make my calls from home or work so there is no excuse at all for me not doing it………..that’s why if, at the end of today, I fail to accomplish this I am just fooling myself.

Financially we are fucked as well…….so there is way more on the line and at stake if I don’t grow up and do what has to be done.

Regarding yesterday (Tuesdays) accomplishments; ate well, walked the Dog but fucked the dog at work, when I was home….while at work I worked hard but like I said I must have the balls to make the calls. (pretty funny)